Tuesday, August 30, 2011


Rabid Raccoons 
 I was one with the wild this weekend.  While enjoying the company of my friends (from college that I get to see only every 3-4 months) out in Viroqua, WI, a raccoon strolls into the barnyard acting quite peculiar. Mind it was around 11am and the raccoon wandering around the yard trying to pick a fight with the dogs (I hope the dogs are okay and unscathed.  We don't need a Cujo on our hands).  It was also dragging its leg.  This Raccoon was huge!  We thought at first he was a stray dog until we got a better look.  It didn't even phase him as we shot a shotgun. I tried scaring it away by turning on my car with a remote starter (I wasn't going out there, Nooo Way) .  When the birds started dive bombing it, we accepted the thought that something is definitely wrong with it. It took 5 shots to take the thing down.  He didn't even run after the first one hit him in the butt.
I am an animal lover.  I was the one that tried to wait to see if it was okay, and it would run away.  I am not a hunter and have not been able to get this image out of my head.  But I do know when something is wrong, actions have to be made.  I am sad the lil guy was sick, but there was nothing to do but take him out of his misery. 

Now if only I can use that train of thought and direct it to my life!  I want so bad to be motivated to do endless job searches, but every time I start, I get myself overwhelmed.  Just like "Dustin"  I put so much pressure on myself to write the perfect cover letter, to find the perfect job, to send out x number of resumes a week.  I get so sick of the job search by the time I have Careerbuilder.com typed in. 
Now if I had some followers, I'd ask....Should I go back on my ADD meds?  I think I should, but then again they make me sort of cranky and unsocial....What do you "all" think?

Monday, August 29, 2011

Self-Appraisal and Reflection

I know this was in the paper today, but I really had to share it on here! 
Put Yourself on a TIME OUT!
I think it is important to time for yourself.  I have been trying to spend more time alone, without distractions such as TV, Internet, Video games, etc..
But what I have found is that most of the time I really like to be around people.  I do not think I am needy or reliant on others to be amused, but I do think I am at my happiest when i am sharing time with someone else.
Lately my self reflection time is spent thinking about this blog.  "What is the message I want to get across writing about my so-called QLC?"
And I am not sure yet...Maybe to show others whats going on in my head, just in case others have the same mentality. 

I had more to add , but I accidentally erased it all.. Out of time for myself, and on to making dinner for the fam.  Maybe later tonight I will be able to type that all in again, but who knows.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

With Capital Quakes, Rebel Riots and Tornado Turmoil, Why not start a Blog?

This Blog has nothing to do with current affairs such as weather, disasters, or oversees events. Sorry if i mislead you...
Do you feel stressed beyond belief? Is your life stuck in what feels to be Purgatory? Do you regularly think about how fantastic your life will be in the future, as long as you can make it through the now? Do these thoughts remind you that your life hasn't started quite yet, and it is stopping you from doing things you really care about?
Well apparently that's a Quarter-life Crisis (QLC).

I don't know if I am 100% on board with the idea of a QLC, but I can't rule it out quite yet. 

Onto myself.  I guess I don't know where to start, so I'll just let this brief rant flow. What the Frickenflip am I doing here?  I have not blogged since my first week in college when studying (and drinking) majorly cut into my xanga time.
I'm not a writer and definitely not a great intellectual, but with that said I never thought I'd feel like such a moron at this point in my life lol.
In 15 days I'll be 25 years old, and exactly 6 years ago yesterday I was Moving into J-Hall of Ripon College.  Was i thinking "I hope when I graduate college i will move back home and drive my dad's old F150 to a dead end bartending job?
Maybe, that was a long time ago...but I doubt it.
So I am reevaluating my happiness.  I don't want to give the impression that i am a crazy emotional needy person.  Too put it bluntly, I've been lazy.  I've put myself in a rut that I have been dealing with for too long.  This blog is my first step of pulling myself out of this dystopia (okay its not that bad, but I wanted to throw in a little drama).
This blog's purpose is to keep me grounded. Remind me that I have goals and bartending forever is not one of them.  Though it pays the bills for now, I am going to apply for jobs despite the thought I might fail to get them. It's time to let myself have fun.  I know its not going to happen over night, but if I stay lazy, nothing will change.  Its been two years since I graduated, and its about time I start to live like a graduate.