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“The secret of getting ahead is getting started. The secret of getting started is breaking your complex overwhelming tasks into small manageable tasks, and then starting on the first one.” – Mark Twain

It is crazy how one thing in your life can change, and it makes you want to work even harder to change the rest!
My sister had her baby on Monday! Little Sonya Rae is my new Niece and I adore her.  She is the the most perfect baby!
I have all these images in my head of how I will spend time with the little bugger and babysit and spoil her rotten. But I feel I can't do any of that until I get a job. 
Yes I know bartending is a job, but I want something that I can depend on!  In the last three weeks my hours have been cut down to 20 hours a week. Yikes!
How do I spoil a kiddle on that income?!

More to follow, I have to get to my job search!

Wedding Bells

Finally! The Last wedding of the year! And to give it that extra Punch I am a bridesmaid. 
I leave at 12pm tomorrow on a 4 hour drive to Lacrosse, WI.  I have a little to no time to relax before The rehearsal! I don't know what to wear.  I don't have a gift yet, and It is 12:51 am And I haven't packed yet :P Yikes.

As much as I am excited to be at this wedding, I can't get someone out of my head.  I met this guy at a bar after I got out of work (thank god for day light savings time). My Coworker went to go get her and I a beer and when she returned I was sitting with this guy.  As I was watching TV waiting for my beer, He walked over to me with his pitcher of Guinness and asked "What are we watching?" 
I think it was cricket or something I didn't understand at all. I made a disgusted face and  said "I have no idea."

Let me just say I am awkward as a person could be!!!  It didn't help he was pretty drunk and I was pretty sober, but I really need to get over being uncomfortable around guys that show an interest in me.  I don't know what happens but as soon as my brain figures out someone is itching to get to know me I turn into fricken cold shoulder girl.  Any tips?  I am all ears!!
We have talked a little bit and we plan on hanging out Saturday night.
Help me get over my jitters! I feel to old to be acting like this. That damn Lil Wayne song (how to love) has been stuck in my head for weeks! 
 OK I have to go make a Packing list! This weekend is going to be crazy! I can't wait to see my college crew!! and I hope I don't wimp out and ditch him Saturday.

Halloween Weekend

10/28/11
For me the night started at work. We threw a costume party for the kids of the country club.  A coworker offered me some cash to drive him to Hortonville.  We drove on old country roads and let me tell you it was quite the sight.  The fog had covered the road, and somehow we were seeing lightning above us along with the clear starry night. I had forgotten my gps and were were seaching for his friends house the old fashioned way.  We had to stop frequently and get out to see the street signs. as andrew got out of my car i said "just so you know, this is how horror movies start!!" The fog and the bent or dirt covered signs made our trip a little longer than it had to be.
After some time we find the right road. He had me turn into a long driveway that lead up to a house and an old barn.  Thats when he tells me...this is the wrong house.....I was instantly freaked out....It really is how horror movies start!!  I floored it out of their driveway backwards (i didnt want to give anyone time to make me into a lampshade).   He find the right house and his friends write me directions to get back..just in case I get lost again.
Well, the directions only work if you pay attention. I called my friend just to share with her my little adventure. 
Suddenly I find myself in Shiocton. I turn around and I see Old 54! I remembered something of the number 54 so I took it.  As soon as it started winding around deer ridden fields and country farms.  Suddenly the fog I thought I evaded a Half hour ago rolled in over the road in front of me. To my right my brights catch the beady eyes of several deer on the side of the road. I Slam on my breaks in fear they were about to cross.  I turn to my left and I see all the shoes hanging in a tree! I desperatly wanted to get out and take a picture. but being a girl, on a country road, fog, Im in a TMNT costume (michelangelo), My fear of killer lurking in the dark takes over.  I instantly thought of a masked man chopping off my feet to hurl into this tree. I drove off. :(
Me and a friend are heading out there tomorrow after work to take some pictures and contribute to the tree.

Halloween time is Here!!!

SO I am going to be a TMNT for this years festivities!!!! Michelangelo!!! The party Dude!
I am making most of my costume except I bought I infamous Jenna Marbles Turtle Backpack!! I am pretty psyched!!!! 

I tried to get a few friends to be Bebop or rocksteady but that was a no go.  Seems like everyone just uses Halloween to Hoe it up!  Thats not my style!  Though I am single, and hoeing it up seems like the norm...I am just gonna party it up.
Well friday night I am working a kids Halloween party so it won't be all that crazy! But im sure they'll get a kick out of it.
But saturday night i'm hitting up the Appleton bars! Should i carry a pizza box?

My House is a disaster!

I need to get organized!

Work it...WORK IT

Its that time of the year to start working on my health again!  September is always when I get back into the groove of working out....AKA my "oops I've been paying my monthly membership to golds gym and didn't use it once this summer, better go back" time.
I found a new workout buddy from work and today we hit up Body Combat class.  Lets just say my right knee might fall off. 
Not only am i getting ready for the wedding I'm standing up for in November, but when I work out I am my most confident, as i am sure that's how almost everyone else feels.  So being that I am starting back into my confident half of the year, It is also time to start working on those cover letters, and job searches!

Time to be creative.  I hope there is a fun Funk  dance class to trigger my creative side!

I am also trying to read more....Today I started Sex Lives of Cannibals!  Seems pretty funny so far. Its a true story, and has many parallels to my life right now.  So far I gathered that its about this guy that has no idea what he wants to do with his life, so takes his girlfriend to some south pacific island to work, and I think he hates it.  (I swear i gave nothing away, I'm on page 7, lol)  Check it out

Lander Family Farm

Viroqua, WI

Rabies

Rabid Raccoons 
 I was one with the wild this weekend.  While enjoying the company of my friends (from college that I get to see only every 3-4 months) out in Viroqua, WI, a raccoon strolls into the barnyard acting quite peculiar. Mind it was around 11am and the raccoon wandering around the yard trying to pick a fight with the dogs (I hope the dogs are okay and unscathed.  We don't need a Cujo on our hands).  It was also dragging its leg.  This Raccoon was huge!  We thought at first he was a stray dog until we got a better look.  It didn't even phase him as we shot a shotgun. I tried scaring it away by turning on my car with a remote starter (I wasn't going out there, Nooo Way) .  When the birds started dive bombing it, we accepted the thought that something is definitely wrong with it. It took 5 shots to take the thing down.  He didn't even run after the first one hit him in the butt.
I am an animal lover.  I was the one that tried to wait to see if it was okay, and it would run away.  I am not a hunter and have not been able to get this image out of my head.  But I do know when something is wrong, actions have to be made.  I am sad the lil guy was sick, but there was nothing to do but take him out of his misery. 

Now if only I can use that train of thought and direct it to my life!  I want so bad to be motivated to do endless job searches, but every time I start, I get myself overwhelmed.  Just like "Dustin"  I put so much pressure on myself to write the perfect cover letter, to find the perfect job, to send out x number of resumes a week.  I get so sick of the job search by the time I have Careerbuilder.com typed in. 
Now if I had some followers, I'd ask....Should I go back on my ADD meds?  I think I should, but then again they make me sort of cranky and unsocial....What do you "all" think?

Self-Appraisal and Reflection

I know this was in the paper today, but I really had to share it on here! 
Put Yourself on a TIME OUT!
I think it is important to time for yourself.  I have been trying to spend more time alone, without distractions such as TV, Internet, Video games, etc..
But what I have found is that most of the time I really like to be around people.  I do not think I am needy or reliant on others to be amused, but I do think I am at my happiest when i am sharing time with someone else.
Lately my self reflection time is spent thinking about this blog.  "What is the message I want to get across writing about my so-called QLC?"
And I am not sure yet...Maybe to show others whats going on in my head, just in case others have the same mentality. 

I had more to add , but I accidentally erased it all.. Out of time for myself, and on to making dinner for the fam.  Maybe later tonight I will be able to type that all in again, but who knows.

With Capital Quakes, Rebel Riots and Tornado Turmoil, Why not start a Blog?

This Blog has nothing to do with current affairs such as weather, disasters, or oversees events. Sorry if i mislead you...

Do you feel stressed beyond belief? Is your life stuck in what feels to be Purgatory? Do you regularly think about how fantastic your life will be in the future, as long as you can make it through the now? Do these thoughts remind you that your life hasn't started quite yet, and it is stopping you from doing things you really care about?

Well apparently that's a Quarter-life Crisis (QLC).

I don't know if I am 100% on board with the idea of a QLC, but I can't rule it out quite yet. 


Onto myself.  I guess I don't know where to start, so I'll just let this brief rant flow. What the Frickenflip am I doing here?  I have not blogged since my first week in college when studying (and drinking) majorly cut into my xanga time.

I'm not a writer and definitely not a great intellectual, but with that said I never thought I'd feel like such a moron at this point in my life lol.

In 15 days I'll be 25 years old, and exactly 6 years ago yesterday I was Moving into J-Hall of Ripon College.  Was i thinking "I hope when I graduate college i will move back home and drive my dad's old F150 to a dead end bartending job?
Maybe, that was a long time ago...but I doubt it.
So I am reevaluating my happiness.  I don't want to give the impression that i am a crazy emotional needy person.  Too put it bluntly, I've been lazy.  I've put myself in a rut that I have been dealing with for too long.  This blog is my first step of pulling myself out of this dystopia (okay its not that bad, but I wanted to throw in a little drama).
This blog's purpose is to keep me grounded. Remind me that I have goals and bartending forever is not one of them.  Though it pays the bills for now, I am going to apply for jobs despite the thought I might fail to get them. It's time to let myself have fun.  I know its not going to happen over night, but if I stay lazy, nothing will change.  Its been two years since I graduated, and its about time I start to live like a graduate.